Adult Film Superstar Aiden Shaw Follows Up His Bestselling Memoir, My Undoing, With a No-Holds-Barred Look at Sexual Excess. Out of Control on Drink and Drugs, Paul Seeks Out Men Who Will Abuse Him. He Rents Them His Body, Snorts Their Coke, and Wakes From Nightmares Barely Knowing What is Real. Shockingly Intimate, Brutal is a Novel That Reads Like a Diary.